Day 23- Hoping for Change

I had a great meeting with my doctor a few days ago and we are try a few different things. Even though I didn't lose any weight last week and actually went up by a pound, I did lose more inches in my arms, stomach, and hips! 

One issue that we discovered what that I wasn't eating enough variety. I was having too much red meat which clogs you up so that didn't help my constipation. I was eating too many green beans, and wasn't mixing up my fruit enough. Basically my body got bored!

So my new eatin plan is to have chicken, turkey, fish, and beef in a meal rotation so that I'm not having the same foods at the same meals day in and day out. 

My doctor also encouraged me to eat more salads because they are mostly free vegetables. So I'm going to be having salads for lunch and cooked veggies for dinner this week.

For fruits I got honeydew, mango and strawberries so I should have a good rotation for fruit as well.

The other change is that they gave me a supplement to take during my meals to help me deal with stress. Even though I haven't felt like I was stressed they were seeing a stress response in my body. I'm also trying the excellerator this weekend 15 minutes before each meal to see if they kicks my body into drive. 

I also was told to try to do little bits of exercise like gently walkin for 20 minutes and so I'm going to try to walk about 7500 steps a day to try to up my burn.

Later today I'll post my weekly photo.

More news tomorrow!

Day 20-Continuing the Journey

So, I've been good and not weighed myself for the last few days.  I'm anxious to see what the scale says tomorrow.  I've been doing well with temptation.  Last night I went to play bunco and I didn't eat any of the candy or cookies or other delicious looking food that was available.  I just had 2 glasses of water.  This morning I watched as my husband ate 2 large cinnamon rolls right in front of me during class and I will say that they looked delicious.  There is still a part of me that wants to eat the sweet and fatty foods that I see all around me.  Sometimes I even sniff them just to be able to scratch my itch and I wouldn't say that fulfills my desire but I've been much stronger than ever before and have not cheated once.

I am getting bored of the foods I can eat and I know that I'm nearing the halfway point so I am pretty sure I can make it.  I just hate having to cook and then having to eat that same flavored food each day either for lunch or for dinner.  I'm craving other meats and proteins such as tofu or salmon.  I'd kill for sushi or ramen (not the instant kind). I also miss pasta and pizza and fondue.
This weekend I'm going to go to a butcher shop and see if I can get some other meat options for a decent price. Chicken and steak are now over rated!  I'm also going to experiment with some other vegetables.  I might make zucchini "pasta" with sauce just to have something different for a side dish.
I really hope that I've lost more weight and inches this week.  Because if I haven't I will be super disappointed and will be wondering if all this sacrifice was worth it.  I do feel like it's a sacrifice because I'm a foody and I've given up delicious foods and new experiences with food just to try to lose weight. And if this doesn't work, I may have to really look into my body chemistry because so far regular diet and exercise, atkins, south beach, never worked after the first 2 weeks.   It's not like I normally eat badly  but I do have a sweet tooth.
Well, I think I've ranted enough.  I will let you know how tomorrow goes.  Its another official weight in day and I am hoping for good news.  I've done everything right this week just like I have for the last 3 weeks so numerically things have to be lower, but my body never follows what it's supposed to do.

Day 17- Frustration sets in

I haven't blogged for a few days because I've been frustrated with everything.  My weight has fluctuated up for the last few days even though I've been adhering to the diet very strictly.  I feel thinner and am just not sure what's going on.  I've even been managing my stress (and quite frankly, if my body can't handle stress then I need a new one because I'm a stress junkie).
My husband has made me promise that I won't check my weight for a few days and so I'm hoping on Friday when it's official weigh in day that I will be lighter.  I have a therapeutic massage on Wednesday and that will hopefully help my legs feel better and will help flush out some toxins in my legs thus making them thinner.
I know right now I'm struggling with control issues which is making the lack of weight loss harder.  I can't control the craziness at work or with my personal business sales, but I can control what I put in my mouth. So I'm frustrated mostly with the fact that I'm doing everything "right" and I'm not seeing results.
This summer I have a weeding that I'm in, another that I'm going to, I'm turning 30 in just over a month, and I have 2 beach vacations and all of these are making me really want to lose weight and look beautiful.  This is adding to the frustration because I'm again afraid that this diet won't work just like all the rest.  But I'm nearly half way through and I will keep the faith and keep on blogging and checking in with myself because I think that this is helping me to keep on going.
I will say that I'm not hungry even though I'm eating so few calories.  I'm also drinking a lot more healthy fluids which has made my skin clear up and is much softer. My hands are still pretty dry but my face hasn't needed moisturizer in a while. Another plus is that I haven't had a migraine in 3 weeks which was another factor in me starting this diet.  I wanted to clean out my system to try to figure out what was causing my migraines.  So, now I'm off to have a relaxing bath and to get ready for bed.  Stay tuned!

Day 15- Settling In

Today I went to Costco to stock up for the week. I have an eye round roast in the oven which I'm super excited about. Eye Round is one of the leanest cuts of beef possible and I was able to cut off the fat so now it's almost fat free! I turned the oven on to 500 degrees and washed the roast off. I patted it dry and rubbed crushed garlic, salt, pepper, and thyme all over it. I let that sit on the kitchen counter for a half hour to let the meat soak in the spices and then put it in the oven for 30 minutes. I then turned off the oven and am letig it sit in the oven for 3 hours. It should be nice and tender tonight and has made the house smell amazing! I also have my own dill pickles pickling in the fridge. 

I also bought chicken breasts and another thyme of steak. We don't eat pork so our meat choices are limited.

Here's my weekly picture update.

No weight loss on the scale yet but I have a feeling that tomorrow I will drop a pound or two because I've been less stressed and walked a bit extra today. Stay tuned for tomorrow's update!

Day 14- Small Successes

So weigh in day came and went.  Still no change although the scale keeps showing that I went up in weight which is crazy.  I think my body just enjoys the roller coaster ride and thinks that if it makes me think I'm not succeeding that I'll quit.
I did however lose inches!! 5.5 inches to be exact!  3 on my thigh, 1 on my calve, and 1 inch on my waist.  So I will celebrate this victory like the rest and will let the weight do it's thing.
I am switching my clearvite to the mornings and hopefully that will kick my metabolism into high gear.

Day 12 and 13-settling in

So I finally had a big loss! I'm now down to 177, although I've been here for two days straight. 

I'm getting used to saying no to myself and staying on plan although several times today I've had my inner sabatour pipe up and say oh you can eat just one: mini cinnamon bun, pretzel, pickle. But I've been able to stay on plan and not sneak. I will say that I do find myself missing some of my old comfort foods and I have had a stressful week, but I think in goin to be ok. In almost 1/3 of the way through this journey with official weigh in tomorrow. I'm making healthier choices and I am training myself to be able to say no after the supportive drops are gone.

I rewarded myself today with a manicure which I haven't had in over a month and it was a nice way to pamper myself and de-stress and a great option that kept me from eating.

I am getting a little bored with my good choices so I'm going to need to be creative next week which will be the half way mark.

The constipation has gotten better but I'm having to force myself to drink about 100 oz of liquid per day. I've been having tea, water, and lemon fizzy water. I might try chocolate chai again because I do miss chocolate.

More news tomorrow!

Day 11-Breakthrough

Today I had a breakthrough mentally. No I still haven't lost any weight or gone to the bathroom but I'm going to keep on trying. I know mathematically that what I'm doing has to work because I have at least a 1300 calorie deficit each day. I think what is happening is that I'm so afraid of brin successful, of losing the weight, of being thin; that my body is holding on to all this fat. I'm subconsciously looking for a reason to quit and my body is giving that reason to me by makin me constipated and not losing any weight for 5 days.

Usually when I don't lose weight after a few days on a diet I quit, but not this time. This time I'm sticking to it because I know it will work! I feel thinner and mentally I'm making smart healthy choices and I'm over coming demons daily. I'm even starting to celebrate small victories even if it's just by myself.

We shall see what tomorrow brings!